its lazeee timesss...

i think its the the weather... it makes u soo lazee.. u don feel like working, eating.. it just makes you feel like doing NOTHING..hahhahha.. maybe the skies were crying because some peple tak mandi agaknyer..kekekek

Dear mr Searatzz so sad tak dapat pancing.. its telling you to take a break , my dear.ikan sumer pi summer vacation la .balik tido n hibernate..ingat manusia je ke malas.sungguh kents.. today was anther happy birfdae for my dearest cuzzin..Miss Fats.. tak abis2 birfdae famili aku ni.. aku jadi goondu no. 1 as for normal. i don understand.. da 26 n i still have to organize parties n games for the iya-kanak-budus... LOL.. miss mokkies must take my place oreidi la.. but these teenagers..tak abis2 emo-crappies diorang.. terperuk dlm bilek..cam-whoring..tak abis.. n aku realise aku da mcm anti social... aku mcm malas la... some makcik2 just have this kind of look yat mcm one kind... hmm.. mayb its my imagination..hahha,, i shalll not listen to all these negativity in my brain..

i ate @ Arnolds on Thursday nite. it was so nostalgical.. like it was back in the old younger days when papa,mama,adik & i (mokkies not born yet) celebrated our birthday lunches there. i remembered when we had to wait for nearly 1 hour just to eat there. the chicken still tasted & smelt the same. I could just conjure up those images before my eyes..n i just sniffled.. i think i miss papa again. Whenever i feel down, he's the only person that i imagine talking to.. thats what i do when i visit him at Pusara Abadi.. i talk and complain as if he's still alive.. i think i sound kiddyish but i think he listens.. he's the only 1 who listens, he's the Only one who understands my sensitive side.. he's my only Ally in the family.. but he's gone... sometimes i think its unfair.. but the show must go on and i will always carry out his wish...


im doing my best, papa. im trying... but people keep reminding that im never good enough, i think maybe you'll underatand me better.. maybe you'll understand what i want and need right now. maybe kakak datang you house n talk to u.. i won't cry , i promise.. its just overwhelming..sometimes... my ally n confidante not by my side anymore...sigh.. i think it was u visiting me during my birfdae.. there was an orb in my family picture just between mokkies n i. prb was a bit faint. nearer to my hair.. Has the same thing during Hari Raya as well.. i attach the pic. i think it was Dad, Mama said that i was his favourite.. coz all i noe aku jarang kena bantai or marah ah.. but kalo kena..silent treatment ah aper lagik... yeah harsh..


ok la.. i wanna sleep . tomolo, early rise and shiny.. mr DOD is at it again. Funny irish man.. lossen up yoo.. operations are doing best to keep the ships afloat...Grrrr,.. to one and all.. PEACE!!

heres the pics.....

elo..elo.. im baaaack..!!

fast ha.. suddenly i feel so rajin u noe. well, was exploring my cuzz's blog. managed to get a few pics of my birfdae celebration. tak abis2 ah ko nurul.. but its ok .. im just happy..happy..

had a smooth day today.. i wore the mclaren jersey..heh.. mcm real.. my colleague really thot i was into the mclaren F1 team but sorry Freddie,ma man, my allegiance is

always to the BMW williams team coz i luuurrrvvveee beemers. bought the jersey cos its a beauty and very confortable. worth every dollar buying. im into jerseys now. not to show off but mama says ive gotto pakai baju tutup aurat. so adidas & all those jerseys , here i come.

thank god the company doesnt restrict on our attire, i think im hopeless in that area. t-shirt n jeans everyday.. makes you feel like its the weekend all the time..hahhahahaaha.. anther thing , its the 1st clothing, mr searatzz and i have thats sepasang..LOL..crappy as it sounds but its those kinda man-thingy.. bleatzzz...

anyway, msg Azrifah today to ask on her n Lil kecik. my dear Godson's having a party!! yeay!! ok wat to buy for lil kecik?? hmmmm.... ur mummy says ur getting longer ah...veli good. cant wait to see u again, sweetheart..u too az.. miss u both a lot.. and to abg rahmat n family hopefully baby Nana gets well soon... kita doakan all goes well and banyak2 bersabar.. Baby Nana's sucha cutie.. ok..am goin to ngorok soon.. good nte everyone.. heres the pics...

We loove u kak lulun..hahha

its been a llloooooooonngggg time....

hahahhaha... great! i finally found the rite direction home. its been ages since i wrote. im lazeeee plus im too tired when i get back from owrk. all i do when i get home is wash up and sleep. play with the cats and relax my mind. tough times all around.. pressure building up at work, frontline..oh before i forget..



HAPPY BIRFDAE TO ME....
HAPPY BIRFDAE TO ME..
HAPPY BIRFDAE TO MEEE...
HAPPY BIRFDAE TO ME!!!



i turned 26 last Sunday.. whoa!! time definitely flies. 4 more years and i'll be 30.. that's too forward thinking. i know but its looming round. nah,.. relaaaxx..still along road for me (insyallah). Who else came to my house to celebrate?? The WHOLE BUNCH, of course. the never ending happy gang. i was sad the day before actually. mum asked me t buy my own cake??!! wat the hell?? baik aku celebrate sorang2 sak. sumer org nye birfdae aku sibuk, then when it comes to mine. ive gotta plan it myself still?? merepek kan??!! hahhahhaha... but in the end bro bought me 3 cakes, 1 from Secret recipe & 2 from Royals. he knows i LLUURRVVEEE cakes. i can eat those on daily basis, don need to makan nasik or anything else. i can practically live on them.. which comes to the fact that my butt is getting bigger n bigger... is it wrong exercise or i'm just fattening myself up like a christmas turkey??


AAAARRRGGGHHHHH....... ive made a pact with my colleagues. 3 of us are gonna run along the Singapore River 3x a week in the evening , then continue on working till 9 as per norm.. berkobar2 nii aku.. start tak terstart2 .. nyampah..maybe next week ah.. i bet i can only run suku of the distance before relaxing one corner amik angin sungai..wakkakakkaka.... giler!


thanks for the well wishes from everyone.. i love you guys.. kalo nak celebrate belated birfdae pun bolei. cakes all around.. happy gilmore..wakkakakka... ok folks i'll try to get pictures to sumarize what ive been doing for the last few months holing.. hahhahahha.. Here's my favourite song for time being. aku rasa it has different meanings to those in love.. susah nak explain,ok example, if you're married and have a scandal.. don't the lyrics of the song somehow describe your internal feelings for the lover...hahhahahha...Just a thot.. have a great weekend folks..!!!

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